Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Reflection - 3 years already?!

I am having a hard time not only finding the words to adequately write this blog, but also the time to finish it. I am guessing that I am going to have to do this in stages. I might actually get it posted before he turns 4 next year!

As I sit here this morning watching Chase play with the boys, I am having a hard time thinking that he is now officially 3 years old. The triplets just watch him in awe and are mesmerized by his every move. He loves to make them laugh and gets so excited when they respond on cue to him.
(Reading to Anthony and Jack - who got distracted by the camera)

He celebrated in true "Corn" fashion with a party last Saturday with friends and a bounce house and the first of 3 cakes to celebrate.



(Bouncing like a madman - even in the mid-90 degree weather!)


(3D Thomas cake - how cool!)


More fun on Sunday with the family - mostly indoors because the weather was so hot.

(We made our own rainbow inside with a pool and plastic balls!)

Then a crazy day on Tuesday (his actual birthday). He started his birthday with Jason and I waking him up singing Happy Birthday - very dazed and confused by this - went to summer camp until Noon. We then came home, had lunch and made cupcakes because Popi and Aunt Lindsey and the girls were coming over for a couple hours.


(Cupcakes for party #2)

When they left, Matt, Jennifer and the kids came over along with Grandma for pizza and more cupcakes.

(Cupcakes for party #3)


While he loved all of his gifts from everyone, and I say that in all honesty because for the last week, all I have done is play with each and every one of them, this one is his favorite. Thanks Meme and Popi!

(On his blue 4-wheeler - what he calls it - with his Spiderman helmet)


Needless to say, his big day was celebrated in style. I have to say I honestly didn't think much about planning his birthday because I was a little overwhelmed but when the time arrived, I knew I wanted this day to be all about Chase. I feel Mother's Guilt over the fact that his life has been turned upside down and he isn't the center of my attention anymore. I think I made up for that just a little this past week and have been making more of an effort to worry less about my chores and spend more time just playing with him. Reflecting on the last year has made me pay attention to just how fast time flies - Chase is 3 and the triplets are almost 6 months old. If that isn't enough to make you spend more time with your kids having fun and less time worrying about whether the laundry is put away or the dishes have been washed - I don't know that anything will.

It is hard to think back 1 year ago and remember all the ways that he has changed. The obvious - taller, no baby-face, speech and physical movements. The less obvious are more personal to me: how he tells me he loves me right before I leave his room at night; him reassuring his brothers that "it'll be okay" while he strokes them lovingly on the head; listening to him talk to himself while he plays trains/trucks/cars. I love the new found independence he has gained over the last year but it also makes me a little sad to think that he doesn't need my help as much. He undresses himself for his shower every night and for the most part can dress himself too. He will open his breakfast yogurt and eat it without assistance and of course knows how to put things away without being asked/told. He understands when Jason and I are talking about 'adult things' and asks questions that are appropriate for the topic which leads Jason and I to remember that we really need to watch what we say at all times.

I love watching him sleep and don't mind when he needs my help with things because it takes me back to a time when he always needed (and wanted) me to help him. I see him in the triplets and it takes me back to a time when life really was simple (at least in comparison to now!) and all I can do is smile. He is an energetic, loving, smart, kind little boy who stole my heart from its' first beat and his first smile. I love all my boys but this one has a special place that is locked away forever. He will always be my baby! I love you Chase and am so proud to be your Mom.